Thy will be done
Final week in the MTC
Well, my time at the MTC has reached its conclusion. We received our flight plans and us Germans will be leaving this coming Monday. The Berliners are supposed to meet at the travel office at 3:50AM. What a joy. It is surreal to imagine that this time next week I will be in my first area in the Berlin Germany mission. Time has flown by, and it's only going to keep passing by. Before I get into a reflection of this past month, I'll talk about this past week.
Like I mentioned last week, we went to the temple! It was such an amazing experience for me. I felt my dad and it's what I have been needing a lot lately. I love the temple because of how much peace and love there is. The feelings on temple grounds are only unique to temple grounds. The minute I am on temple ground, I feel like I am in a different place. It's part of the celestial world, not this one. I'm grateful we have been able to go to the temple every week since arriving here. I know I'm going to extremely miss that when I get to Germany because I won't have the luxury of being so close to a temple-- at least I think.
|Yes, that's the Holy Ghost with me|
|Our MTC branch|
On Saturday we had our first skype TRC with a member in Germany. It was a fun experience. We were seated, as a companionship, in front of a computer screen and had headsets to speak into. We called our member and he picked up (I mean he was going to either way haha). He spoke incredibly fast. I was surprised at how much I understood. What surprised me even more was how much I spoke. My German is progressing, it's broken but it's better than it was the day I got here. We shared a 30 minute message about charity and love. When we have charity and love, we have the pure of love of Christ (Moroni 7:47). Showing charity and love can be as simple as serving others. When we serve others, we are not only serving God but we are also showing him how much we love him (Mosiah 2:17). This man is amazing. He shared with us how he serves in his community and how he helps spread the #LighttheWorld or #derWelteinLicht initiative every day on facebook. He's amazing. We also shared a story that we found and I invite you all to read it: Sharing the Savior's Love at Christmas. I know that when we choose to serve everyone we are not only able to feel God's love for them, but we are also able to make a difference and become more like Christ.
We began our in-field orientation. As we have continued our orientation each day, I continually think about how soon I'll be in Germany. I have only been out a month and it has been tough and I am tired. Learning a new language has been a very, very, new experience. I have never learned a language before, so learning how I personally learn a language has not made the task any simpler. My native language is Spanish, that's what I grew up speaking. I learned English when I was a tiny kid and it's what I speak now. Yes, I developed my Spanish all throughout middle and high school, but it was not anything like learning a language from scratch. When I came into the MTC, the language barrier did affect me. I was frustrated with not being able to understand any of it. My time here has taught me that I don't need to worry about that. A bit ironic right? I'm not worried about German. I don't know a lot of German, but I'm able to understand it now and I am able to communicate enough-- and that's what matters.
Having a companion has taught me a lot. Having two companions has taught me even more. I'm not going to sugarcoat it, having someone with you 24/7 is challenging. There are times when you love each other so much, and there are times when your patience and humility is tried. Some days are tougher than others. You experience everything your companion does, it's happened to me because I care. My companions tough days are my tough days too. And when those days come I've found it best to go to the Lord in prayer because as much as I want to help, I can't always help... but He can. The best moments have been when my companionship has been united. They are a blessing from God.
These past days have been oddly tough. I can't pinpoint exactly why. I don't feel scared. I don't feel excited either haha, but that might be because I'm exhausted. I don't fear my language abilities. I know I will be able to understand and speak German, maybe not all at once but it will happen because I can do anything through God. I'm not doubting my testimony. I know God is my loving Heavenly Father. I know he loves me, and you, so much that he sent his only begotten son to die for us so that we all can have a chance to return to live with Him in his kingdom again. I know my mission is where I need to be. Although it has been tough, my experiences have brought me closer to Christ and to my Father in Heaven. I don't feel homesick, but I miss my parents. These past nights I have been reading letters my mom had written to my grandma while she was on her mission and it has been a great help for me to feel her with me. As for my dad, well there's not a day that passes by without me asking God to help me feel him. I know he's with me. I know I'm going to work wonders in Berlin. I know God has big plans for me. It's been fascinating to see bits of his plan for me unravel.
I'm so sorry this email has taken so long to send. I went to the temple today, again. I went in with a couple of questions, and I received answers. I came out of the temple with more faith, and I have a lot of faith. I was in the celestial room and I was praying to God for guidance. I am committed to him and I was asking for further instructions. After I said my prayer, I picked up the Book of Mormon and I quietly said, "Alright, guide me to what you need me to do." I took a couple seconds for dramatic affect, and in all honesty I wasn't sure if whatever scripture I opened up to would be of assistance to me. I was wrong. I opened up to Ether 2. The book of Ether is a record of a people, the Jaredites, who were commanded to go to the promised land. I kept reading and I came upon the following verses:
18 And it came to pass that the brother of Jared cried unto the Lord, saying: O Lord, I have performed the work which thou hast commanded me, and I have made the barges according as thou hast directed me.
19 And behold, O Lord, in them there is no light; whither shall we steer? And also we shall perish, for in them we cannot breathe, save it is the air which is in them; therefore we shall perish.
20 And the Lord said unto the brother of Jared: Behold, thou shalt make a hole in the top, and also in the bottom; and when thou shalt suffer for air thou shalt unstop the hole and receive air. And if it be so that the water come in upon thee, behold, ye shall stop the hole, that ye may not perish in the flood.
21 And it came to pass that the brother of Jared did so, according as the Lord had commanded.
22 And he cried again unto the Lord saying: O Lord, behold I have done even as thou hast commanded me; and I have prepared the vessels for my people, and behold there is no light in them. Behold, O Lord, wilt thou suffer that we shall cross this great water in darkness?
23 And the Lord said unto the brother of Jared: What will ye that I should do that ye may have light in your vessels? For behold, ye cannot have windows, for they will be dashed in pieces; neither shall ye take fire with you, for ye shall not go by the light of fire.
24 For behold, ye shall be as a whale in the midst of the sea; for the mountain waves shall dash upon you. Nevertheless, I will bring you up again out of the depths of the sea; for the winds have gone forth out of my mouth, and also the rains and the floods have I sent forth.
25 And behold, I prepare you against these things; for ye cannot cross this great deep save I prepare you against the waves of the sea, and the winds which have gone forth, and the floods which shall come. Therefore what will ye that I should prepare for you that ye may have light when ye are swallowed up in the depths of the sea? (Ether 2:18-25)
4 And I know, O Lord, that thou hast all power, and can do whatsoever thou wilt for the benefit of man; therefore touch these stones, O Lord, with thy finger, and prepare them that they may shine forth in darkness; and they shall shine forth unto us in the vessels which we have prepared, that we may have light while we shall cross the sea.Can I just say, wow. I finished reading this and I knew that God wanted me to read this so that I will always remember that we are a team. I'm doing His work. Because I am doing His work, He will continue to give me guidance and instructions. I have no doubt that through God I am able to accomplish sooooooo much. I know that if I continue being the missionary I am, I can ask Him for miracles and I know he will give them to me. I love him so much for that. I have no doubt he hears our prayers and that he provides answers when we seek in sincerity.
5 Behold, O Lord, thou canst do this. We know that thou art able to show forth great power, which looks small unto the understanding of men.
6 And it came to pass that when the brother of Jared had said these words, behold, the Lord stretched forth his hand and touched the stones one by one with his finger. (Ether 3:4-6)
I made the choice to love. I chose to love the MTC. I chose to love the language. I chose to love the people. This is a choice I have made to always apply into my life, and it is one I continue to make. This choice has moved mountains for me. It has not been simple to love, but God has made it possible. I don't know what these upcoming days hold, but I know I am in safe hands because I have accepted His will for me.
P.S. See ya in Deutchsland (;