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So Mondays are my official pdays. In the MTC they were on Wednesdays and due to the holiday season our schedule was funky. Now all should be back to normal. If you would like to send me anything (ie. letters or care packages) you can do so at this address:

                                                             Sister Alicia Quintana
                                                           Germany Berlin Mission 
                                                               Zerbster Straße 42
                                                                   12209 Berlin 

From between now and my last pday, not a lot has happened... I mean it's only been 5ish days. To be honest it was a sad week. We broke up with 3 people. As missionaries, we talk to everyone who wants to talk to us about our church. We had been meeting with 2 potential individuals who could possibly take on the missionary lessons, another we had hoped would progress toward baptism. We had a DTR with them. For those of you unfamiliar with this term, DTR signifies "Determining the Relationship." Typically this term is used when you are trying to have that awkward conversation with someone else that well... determines your relationship with them. We had appointments with them and were able to conclude that it is just not their time yet. There's only so much we can do as missionaries. So, we have returned them to the Lord. Our first appointment had left me really gloomy. I wasn't tragically sad, but it did break my heart a bit. It's challenging to let go of someone you have grown to love so much.

These two appointments kind of set up our week. This week we have been trying to find people out on the streets. It's been quite an experience. We'll typically stop people as they're walking and ask them the big 5 questions every person at one point or another asks themselves:

                                                          1. Is there a God?
                                                          2. Is there a life after death?
                                                          3. What is the purpose of life?
                                                          4. Why is there suffering?
                                                          5. How can I find peace and joy in life?

Then we'll ask them if they've heard of the Book of Mormon, and we'll invite them to read it because we know the answers to these question and all other questions will be answered in the book. Well, we happened to stop a man the other day. We started talking and soon enough we realized he was more interested in proving us wrong than allowing us to speak. My poor trainer was responding to him because she knows more German than I do. I, in the meantime, was trying to keep up with what this man was saying. We had probably been speaking with him for a good 10 minutes when I thought to myself, this is ridiculous.

This was then proceeded by me bluntly, but very lovingly, blurting out "Do you believe in Jesus Christ?" This man responded with, "Ja." I then immediately asked, "Do you love your family?" He responded with, "Ja, clar." I then asked him if he would read the book. He said yes. We have yet to hear from this man, but stay tuned. 

I don't know if it's a result of the rain or these breakups, but I've been feeling quite gloomy. It's like there's a rain cloud above me but it's not raining, at least not yet. It's been a stressful week with trying to figure out how my companion and I can help the people we meet come unto Christ. It's quite different here. I'm still getting used to it. I think so far my biggest struggle is that I meet people here, and I grow to love them and then once I realize (as a missionary) that they aren't progressing... It's time to take a step back. And that's what kills me. 

I have grown to love everyone I have met, and seeing them choose to go a different way hurts. Not because I don't respect their decision, but because as much as I love them and as much as all of me wants to reach out to them and keep them in my life... I refrain from doing so. I refrain because I know with all my heart that God has a plan for every one of us. l know He has a divine plan unfolding for them and for me. 
The mission life is tough, but it has been so rewarding. I have seen miracles happen and I have only been out for close to 2 months. I know this work is of God. I know that through faith in Jesus Christ, daily repentance, making and keep covenants, and enduring to the end, all is possible. 
26 And now, my beloved brethren, I would that ye should come unto Christ, who is the Holy One of Israel, and partake of his salvation, and the power of his redemption. Yea, come unto him, and offer your whole souls as an offering unto him, and continue in fasting and praying, and endure to the end; and as the Lord liveth ye will be saved (Omni 1:26)

Frohes neues Jahr,
Sister Quintana
Everything was empty today in Hamburg, including this train station
Germany is a wonder
We were caught in the rain