It's not about you

I thought I'd give it a try so we'll see if this posts haha

Hallo liebe Leute. Ich habe so viel lieb für Sie. 

This past week was 50-50 type of week. The first half was a much needed boost of energy with zone conference. Zone conference was awesome as always. Our Easter initiative was announced! I am so excited for it, preparations have begun for it's official launch on the 23rd. The other half of the week was tough, but still full of tender mercies. 

One of those tender mercies happened to be about an Albanian man that we met a week ago. I think I wrote about him last week, but to refresh your mind... We were on our way to our church building when we stopped to talk to this man. He said he was interested to read the book of Mormon so he came with us to church to get a copy in Albanian. He said he'd be returning to Albania within 10-11 days. Fast forward to yesterday. We got a call from one of our zone leaders, who also happens to be in our district. We thought it was weird because he never calls us, never-- well on rare occasions haha. He asked us if we remembered talking to an Albanian guy. It took me a while to figure out who he was talking about, but I caught up and he kept asking us because it was taking us forever to respond. He freaked us out haha. He took a while to continue speaking and in my mind I was just thinking uh oh, what did we do wrong. Well we listened and apparently they had just run into the same guy on the bus! He said he had met two young girls (*cough, cough* us) who gave him a book and that he knows a bit of the church! It was an awesome testament that some people are genuinely ready to hear what we have to share.

Today was our district pday and we had a blast touring Hamburg like tourists haha. We were able to go into a tunnel that's underneath a river and take a ferry to a little beach spot. Boy, do I love the sounds of waves crashing down onto the shore. Don't worry, we didn't go in.

Oh how I've miss the beach

I've hit my 4 month mark since I have begun this incredible journey. I have experienced quite a lot of things. Serving a mission is unbelievably tough, but it has been the best choice I have made for my life. Like I said, a mission is tough. All days are amazing, but some of them can be tougher than others. I have found a lot of comfort in reading in the bible and Book of Mormon, but I've found comfort in music too. A song that I've become obsessed with this past week is by Davis Handley, It's Not About You:

You look into your fathers eyes
When he takes his hands off your head.
He whispers that he's proud of you,
And knows you'll do your best.
You say you wonder if you can do it
And that's when he says,
"It's not about you.
It's not about you,
it's for the people who are blessed by what you do.
It's not about you."

Everybody's gathered round you,
Eyes all a glow.
You start to read that piece of paper,
To see where you'll go.
And you wonder if you're ready,
But you already know,
It's not about you.
It's not about you,
it's for those who are searching for the truth.
It's not about you. 

There have been a lot of moments when I've thought about giving up. And then these lyrics come into my head. They've been a sweet reminder for me to remember how much my choice to give up 18 months of my life is blessing others here in Germany and at home. One of the things that Christ taught while he was here on the earth was of the importance of losing yourself in the service of others. My happiest days have been when I have done just that. And when I feel exhausted and alone and like I can't go on, I think of all the people who are described within those lyrics. It's simple to become consumed in personal issues thinking that God has left you when things begin to go wrong or get tougher than normal. But I promise you if you continue to look outward and find ways to give to others, you will receive so much more in return than you could ever imagine. And that's because God loves His children and He wants what's best for them, for you. I know without a doubt that God is fully aware of what you are going through and how you feel. He knows you by name, he knows you personally. I know it might not always seem like it, but he is there. I promise you that. He is always just one prayer away. I know that when we choose to diligently endure hard times with faith and with hope, rich blessing are only a short distance away. 

Sister Quintana