Maybe it's okay

Dear family and friends,

These past 5 weeks have felt like an eternity while also managing to feel like they've been flying by. I can absolutely positively say that I've been experiencing my refiner's fire more intensively than I have ever before. I've found myself asking God on multiple occasions where he is in my life, and pleading for a glimpse of everything he can see-- that I can't. I felt this way as I was trying to decide if coming home was God's will for me or if it was an idea that came from myself. As I chose to act on my spiritual prompting and walk straight into darkness, I knew it wasn't going to be easy. It hasn't been easy. I've been experiencing a lot of doubt and fear, but somehow God finds a way to comfort me with faith when I need it most. I find myself knowing with surety I'm exactly where he needs me to be.

My mom had her surgery this past week. God gave us the miracle we were praying for. Her surgery went great and her recovery is even better. I recall seeing her after she came out of the operation room and was astounded at how great she looked. Her expected stay in the hospital was about a week and after 4 days the doctors were impressed with her rate of recovery that she was cleared to come home! Her last day in the hospital she was walking, eating solids, and going to the bathroom on her own!! We also received official news after the surgery that my mom doesn't have cancer! We're so happy and thankful for how things have turned out.

Experiencing my refiner's fire and having my eyes opened to the workings of God has been very touching and humbling. It hasn't been fun, but I'm thankful God loves me enough to give me trials that are continuing to change me and mold me into something better. I know God cares about all of his children and he truly is right next to us, walking with, standing by, and holding us when we need him and when we don't want him. He's there. He loves you. He lives.

"And now, my [sons and daughters], remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down into the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall" Helaman 5:12

"For after much tribulation come the blessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand" D&C 58:4

Thank you for your love and prayers,
Sister Quintana